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ok so i just got my 17 day diet book a couple days ago and started reading it…anyone else reading this book or doing this diet? if so what do you think about it so far?

Now that I have moved into my new house, I am ready to make some major changes in my life. The first change on my list…is of course to lose weight. Why is it when I move into a new place I feel like I should start my life over? I guess I feel like new house…new rules. With my new screensaver of Jennifer Hudson’s Weight Watchers picture for motivation…I am ready to tackle my beast…as Ruby calls it. I have been doing my homework through out the month of May on the 17 day diet. So far it seems like a very healthy diet but I can see it will be a challenge for me. I hope I make it past day three.

its been a month today since i had surgery and i feel im back to normal. i feel like i never had surgery at all. sometimes i forget that i had surgery and forget that certain foods i cant eat till i have to go to the bathroom then i remember. its taken some getting use to but i feel great. now i need to get into a routine of walking again. its hard to jump back into a routine once you have stopped it for a while. now the weather is changing…will be able to walk outside soon.

i havent been doing much this month because i have been sick and in alot of pain.  the doctors finally figured out it was my gall bladder. 2 large gall stones. so i just had surgery on wed to have my gall bladder removed. im home now, recouping, and in 2 weeks i should be able to start again on my weight loss journey. but right now im resting alot and on a liquid diet…ugh. im trying to get up and walk around my house as much as i can. the weather has been really nice here. if i feel good tomorrow i think i will walk outside for a lil bit. im just thankful this is over with and im ok. now i have to change my eating habits regardless. any suggestions???

…Today, Day 1

Trying to get out of this depressing mood I’ve been in for the last several months. So I started yesterday what I like to call “Cleaning House”. For some reason for me when I get like this, I feel like the one thing that helps me to snap out of it is to remove the clutter within myself and from all around me while literally cleaning house. If that makes any sense. So I really am cleaning my house, but I’m also cleaning my spirit or cleaning myself mentally. Throwing all self doubt away. Sweeping up the self pity. Really “cleaning house.” Its what I do normally to get out of my depression. It kind of helps me get motivated and its a start for me to feel better and to come out of my depression.

So I started yesterday. Cleaning off my front porch from all the dead plants I had hanging up from last year. It was depressing me to see dead plants still hanging up everytime I would sit on my front porch. My son and my nephew helped. We cleaned the grill. Cleaned the fire pit. Removed all dead plants. Swept up the front porch. Bang the mat. Knocked down spider webs. Took out the trash. And sitting on the front porch now…I feel like I can finally breath better. It feels more open and changed my whole mood yesterday. I sat on the porch and cried all my feelings out to my sister on the phone yesterday. I felt like I cleaned the fire pit of my built up anger, I bang the mat of my frustration, I knocked down all the spider webs by saying all the sticky things I didnt want to say cause I was afraid to hurt others feelings, I removed all dead plants by letting go things I cant change, I cleaned out the grill by scraping and scraping all my sorrow and tears away. And I bagged it all up…and took out the trash. And I sat on the porch and felt peace.

I still have alot of cleaning left to do. But it was a good start. I started small. The front porch. And I had help doing it. My son and nephew helped me literally. And my sister helped me emotionaly. Day one, was a good day.

I hope I make sense to someone. If I dont, then thanks for listening anyway.

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